How I Fit All my Solo Wild Camping Kit in my 36l Osprey Stratos Backpack

She did it - and with 2 beers at that

The Post of the Day

Friday and I am doing well. I will soon be out and about. WOW - I earned this weekend thing.

Monday I went to the Chiropractor to be adjusted and have my "Networking" reset. Today I am starting to really feel the effects of this new therapy. My mind is much more focused and relaxed.

My Post Computer/Laptop Life

This is Day 6 of my life without my Laptop.

I am still on the computer at work. My job is computer based and a computer is the main tool that I use to do my job. I am speaking regarding my personal home laptop and computer.

6 days ago the laptop failed due to a dying hard drive. I tried to change out the hard drive and the procedure failed. And it is from this failure that my freedom to have an active life with connection to a larger world.

I now read books and listen to music in my front room office. I am walking each day. I took a walk with my wife and we walked to a place to have dinner together and then a long walk back. Mind and body are becoming active again,

Computers are addictive and demanding. This tool that was meant to help people, a Human Augmentation Device, is itself a device that pulls a person's interest in so tightly that an addiction, perhaps of Narcissism, develops. I and others lose our life to our time in front of the monitor.

Is it the call of something that seems important or is it plain Narcissism?

I see that I will need to get a CPU again for writing and financial accounting. I am going to wait until the last moment to fix or purchase a new laptop. I want a life and life is possible without a computer.

I enjoy the larger world that my freedom and separation from computers outside of work has been given me.

Mind and Body in Re-set Mode - Where to Now - Part 1

My new Chiropractor worked on me last night. it was a painful and good experience.

It was painful because he had to move a disk about 1/2 inch to get it back into place. The pain wrapped around my body and ended up in the area of my pancreas.

The good is from the fact that the pain from the disk shot through my body and into my pancreas. Since I am a diabetic and live in a time and place of stress this change, even a painful change, was movement away from a place I need to leave.

He also worked on nerve networking. from this I was to gain a release of pain from the places in me that had held onto it. This release was to be within 3 hours of the work. The release did not seem to come. No laughter of crying or anything. I did get very clear and relaxed and focused in my mind. I would not call it a release. I would call it a focused relaxation.

Today, while listening to a radio show that was interviewing the futuristic scientific Kurtzwiel, he said that we are a product of our thoughts. If we have positive thoughts and we live in a creative and new environment we will create a creative person that is very positive.

I have not been doing this in my life. I have never done this.

I thought poorly of myself in college, at WKU, that I would go into an academic career. I heard something say to me in my mind that a "real man" would seek adventure and do great and wonderful physical things and build an empire with my hands, words, actions, and thoughts. Thoughts would come last and the physical would be the first item. And, if I was fast enough and knew the right people, I would be able to do all sorts of marvelous things and be in the best bars, clothing, cars, vacations, apartment or home, and be a trend setter.

I appear to have focused on everything except me and what I want to do. I have been far too easily influenced by other people and their ideas du jour. I wanted to be certain and shure in my choice. Is this a failing or a virtue for a person? In principal askign questions, making plans and creating the environment to make them work should be the way for a focused person to live their life. I can see that without the focus on a goal or a set of results then there would never be a result or a conclusion.


The CPR for my life is not available to me. I have put it off and become vauge to myself.

Gettign Organzied and Growing Towards a Purpose

Please forgive the very long time since I last wrote an article. The last time I had much to say was in August when Don Bayliss died.  Since that time, I have been living life and gaining experience to give fuel to my actions. Death came to the people around me again. As I age, the death of friends will happen more and more to me and to others of my age group. Soon, and far too soon for preference sake, it will be a time of only memories of those who have died before me.

The funeral for Don was fantastic. I knew he was a focused man and a moving in his and others lives. I did not know how many people he had affected. Don has shown me, even in his death, that there is more to what we can do each day than what we thought possible. Energy and action needs organization and a goal. I am without a goal and an organization to get me to that goal.

My goal, even my purpose in life, is something that I cannot place in my mind or on paper. The closer I get to “My Purpose” the more powerful something inside of me blocks me. I am preventing myself from saying, speaking, writing, claiming My Purpose in my own life.  It is as if my own life is terrified of who my Life really can be.

If I had to place myself in a category, a place, or a path it would be that of a teacher. I have always worked hard with people to get them to a higher level. I have more often made myself a nuisance to these people. I think most of them wanted a quick fix to their current issue or problem. Some just wanted attention from another person. None of them wanted a change to their life and way of thinking and acting. You cannot change the person because they do not want or are able to change what they are. What a teacher does is gives the student information and the path to use that information on and guidance if it is asked by the student.

Americans, as a people, have had horrible experiences while being a student the use of the title, Student, is not a welcome one. Americans hate the idea of being a student as it means that they are out of control of their lives.

Here is what I see in myself and what I see in others: “I do not want to change who I am, I just want the power to change others.”

It is change that I need. I have wanted out of this place in my life for years. The economy and my commitment to paying for my son’s college have focused me into staying where I am in life. Sometimes I think that God or Jesus just wants me to be where I am in life to do or be something. My dear mother thinks I need to learn something.

I know that a little more opportunity and movement is what I want and need in my life. I see my life as one of a soldier in a wood surrounded by enemy and fighting off the enemy to stay alive. The enemy is surrounding me and I have less and less of a chance to get away. What happens when I lose? Is it capture and humiliation or death for me? I did not want a battle for my life. I wanted a walk in the woods and calm reflection. I now have bullets passing my head and heart that are getting closer and closer.

Death, for Don Bayliss and for me, is something that I have grown up around. The end is not here yet. I can change and grow. Is the battle the purpose of my life? The fight is easier than the struggle with a purpose.

Purpose in a battle:

• to win
• to lose
• to be captured
• to kill
• to not be killed
• to run away

Purpose in alife:

• to grow
• to make a better world
• to live an honorable life
• to seek and obtain glory and fame
• to live a life that I create for myself.

I am not living a life at this time all I am doing is spending time.  I need more connection in life with others to drive me forward.

Connection is what will move me forwards.

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Don Bayliss final memorial

it's been almost 2 weeks Don Bayliss died.
the final memorial is today.
People move on from this to other lives and existences.
what is really keep going after we get and have it all?

Back at work at the us government

I cannot say how little fun a person can have at the us gov. The place use to not post much, fte our contractor. Today, the pay for most is still low and the stress is high.

uncle sam: Out of money and out of time, what happens for or to the people next?