I am doing well today... I hope you doing well yourself.

Much has happened in the last two weeks. We, my wife and I,  are now out of our credit card debt to 4 large card amounts. I have gone on a weekend trip to another city and I am not exhausted and regret spending the time and money. I am now ready to move on to a new position somewhere else in the world and away from the hole that I have been hiding in for many years. I am losing weight and have much more energy. My world is moving forward and into the direction that I want it to head in. Much has happened in the last two weeks. 

We are doing very well at my home for the first time in about two decades.

My Purpose: I have read much about defining a purpose for your life to have the place to set course for. I have looked back and seen that my purpose for years was to pay bills and make the money "happen" for my family. This is being a human doing. I know that my purpose is higher than that. I am confused as to what the next level is or if purpose is a global thing or if it a changing item that moves as we change and grow in this life. 

Man is a problem solving creature. To get to the next level things need to be added and things need to be removed. I would like to place some less than stellar items in the mix at this time. I am not bringing in the negative to balance the positive. I am merely placing the next level of items up to be worked on to move me along. Some of the items are external to me and some go to the basis of my very soul. Question (perhaps a rhetorical one that takes me into the less traveled areas of my mind and soul): Are these results that I have written below the areas where I see the need to set my standards higher? By working on these results am I then raising the standards of my entire life?

• The thought process on my sentences - I jump around too much in my thinking and presentation of my thoughts when I write. I write and I do not check what I have written.
  
  
• The lack of a Better Defined Purpose in Life. I have several purposes. All people have multiple levels of purpose. I need to prune to old, reduce the size of the ones that are left, and create the next and more focused purpose.
  
  
• The house needs a HUGE amount of work. I mean fix it up and keep it or get the 5 gallons of gas out and spread it around.
  
  
• The yard is in need of a face-lift as well.
  
  
• To continue the process of juicing and to get my health and body in better physical shape. Thanks to Archie D. I am now heading in the best direction of my life.
  
  
• Stop the ADD in my life. After a week of helping others it can take 2 days to get over the push and pull of the people in my head.
  
  
• Take a mini-retirement and not have to see or be around too many people. To wake up in a new place each day and to sleep without fear of having to go to work late or missing a day. To sit in a chair at night in the woods while I listen to music on a FM/Shortwave radio from around the world. To plan my life's next phase in comfort and in stability without the pressure of need.
  
• To live a life of abundance. Not the grabbing onto things from fear. The living of life with calm security of having what is needed and if more is needed then it can be acquired in an ethical and morally positive action.
  

I am looking over what I have just written and I recognize that these are not purpose; these items are the results that I want to happen in my life. For good or bad, this is where I am at this time. I fear defining my purpose. What if I FAIL at my purpose? Logically, as I re-read my writing on this, is that my true purpose for my life at this point is to move forward and move beyond the idea of failure and success. I have to accept that failure in life is acceptable and normal to all men. 

Purpose = To be in Action and to Succeed or Fail

Context = Respecting My Own Actions.